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Hey everyone! hows everyone doing today?Well im not that happy at the moment and let me tell you why.

so basically my frined asked me to go with her to the gym so i was likeo kay wait let me ask my mum.my mum goes go ask ur day i asked him he said yes after i tried to convince him and so i told the girl okay i'll come.Next day i got ready and everything my lil bro goes swimming at 1:30 and so i was like to my mum can you take me at 1 pm and she was like okay.However i started teasing my lil bro in the morning so she got really pissed off at me dont worry but she's always acting like that sometimes i wonder if shes bipolar or something :/ anywayz so shes still pissed off at me and its gone past 1pm and when we do eventually do go out and are driving in the car,guess what she does? well she goes straight to ma lil bros swimming place and its not even 1:30.okay so your pissed off at me doesnt mean you can make me late and when i tried calling the girl i was supposed to be meeting with i couldnt reach her so one hour later and im still trying to contact her and im getting really pissed off that i started crying..so im on the phone trying to call someone to help me out i mean i just wanted someone to listen to my horrible situation im in and then i remember that the closest friend i have doesnt even fucking answer my texts so how on earth is she going to even answer my call and all the other friends well if i called them they'll be like wtf mate get a life which i dont need reminding because i know that i need to get a life okay? So anyway i go on my kik and i start to talk to this really nice guy that lives in america we're pretty close and i told him what happend  and i was just relieved that i found someone there to listen to me even if they couldnt do anything :( what im trying to say is i really hate my life,my family and just me.i mean what the fuck does she want me to do improsined in his house my whole life? She thinks im so disrespectful,pffft there are people out there that do things that would make her cry so to he quite honest i dont think im that bad i've always tried changing and becoming better but she doesnt even give a shit and i just really cant wait to get out of this house and live my own life.ALONE .You all must be thinking this girls being such a Dramaqueen but im not okay because you dont know how lonely i feel and now the girl that i was supposed to be meeting with well when we did go to the place were we were supposed to be meeting well i couldnt find her and so i went back home.shes obviously pissed off at me right now and ive told her sorry a million times but she wont forgive me till like i tell her the entire story which she will find very stupid just like you guys do too.i just really felt so down that moment when my mum was acting like that and you know how something makes you feel so down and u start to have these thoughts like i want to commit and why was i born well if you dont then thats okay but i do and its just so annoying becuse everytime i have them  im tere being so serious thena moment later i forget all about them and it just makes me feel like i cant even make up my decision.Oh god im so sorry i must be talking nonesense but come on people i've already told you that im different and i have a very boring life thats why i spend my time on here writing about my life.Im sorry everyone i'll leave you guys alone and a reminder you all should be thankful that you have such nice parents that trust you and know that you'll be able to step into that world without needing a helping hand from them :) goodbye and i love you all :* ❤️❤️This song is pretty old and not that famous but you guys need to listen to it okay its pretty cool ;) 

Quote of the day/week:

Enjoy your day everyone and im so sorry again for wasting your time talking about some bullcrap that doesnt even make sense.goodbye.

its raining,its pouring...

Week holiday and its a bad weather uptill now :/ And all i've been doing is walking around my house singing yes i know i need to get a life but hey what do you want me to do walk out in the rain? well i wouldnt mind but as i said im a prisoner in this house :3 seriously guys im really angry at you,you dont even talk to me i feel so rejected :'( why do  u do dis maaan :( I dont really have any plans for the holiday but i wont mind if someone came and hung out with me ;) i hav ice cream :P I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE! i dont even talk to my 'friends' but i dont really mind :) i just need someone to be close to even if we dont live anywhere near each other.So basically yesterday i was on kik and this random dude pops up to me and he's like send me a pic of u so i was like okay :) so  i sent him one and he goes 'fuck me donkeys' i mean like god no need to be so rude i already know im ugly so you dont have to tell me.i wonder whats so ugly about me apart from my hair coz that shit is just erghh -.- oh well we just gotta thank god for how he created us right? :') Remember the 'beautiful disasters' book? well theres another one called 'walking disaster' and its like the guys part of view and im getting it but its gunna be gay if its goin to be like the same shit that happens in the 'beautiful disasters' book.

This is a pic of what they could look like aw they look so cute ;') its amazing how some people can read books and imagine what the characters actually look like and then draw 'em and im just here sitting after I've finished  a book like 'mergh i've read better'. Speaking of better you guys have to,HAVE TO! read this book its like so amazing its called Eleanor and park <3 god why am i such a bookworm aha i've been reading since i was in primary :D

The pic on the left is another drawing from a fan and omg in the book she isnt even described to be that fat but oh well shes still beautfiul no matter how fat or skinny she is :D .Please read it people :) 

Am so pissed off right now at everything,im pissed off at me,at people,at many things.but goodbye people and this is the quote of the day/week.

I dont understand what that pic even means aha but i'll leave it to you guys to find out ;)

love you all :* bye bye.

whens summer holidays coming? :(

coz i live in uk and its summer the weather's pretty messed up.mostly it'd be sunny on the weekends and then on weekdays we're back to rain -.- i mean i dont mind or anything but seriously stop joking around mr.weather :P
thereis like 8-9 weeks i think of school leftor less and wow to be quiet honest this year went by so quickly ;) We havent done our end of year exams which is really annoying because it means we still have to do a lot of revision wehhh >:( wish me luck guys okay :D whats everyones  plans for the holidays? im goin on holiday to my home country yay cant wait im gonna see my cousin shes like the only best friend that i can talk to about anything :') i've really missed her all this time i've been stuck here with some two-faced bitches that i call 'friends' i really need to start chosing my friends properly from now on or i'll end up living my entire life with fakers :( i still havent found out if you can comment on this site coz like guys i really feel like im talking to myself so please if this site does have something like that then please talk to meeee :3
im watching this old comedian that passed away does anyone know him? he's called Robert Schimmel

rest in peace :* watch him he's really funny :')

Erghh tomorrows school and im always dreading it i really hate seeing people from my school.someone save me :( im so bored i want to go out somewhere but i have the strictest parents ever that dont even let me out -.- has anyone heard about the fault in our stars? well the movies nearly coming out and me and some other girls are going out as a group to watch it as a celebration for one of my mates birthday.but i kinda dont want to go coz theres some girls that are coming that im not really comfortable with,you know what i mean? all im freaking over is my hair!not the clothes or the shoes just my hair.Believe me i have the weirdest hair ever i dont even know who i got it from :/i think im going to start posting a quote everytime i put a new post up,what do you guys think?well i'll do one right now.

stay happy everyone :* 

im new here ppl :)

hey :)

im new to this site and im sure it will take me a few weeks to get used to it and learn how to use it hmm they should have some kind of walkthrough on here aha but walkthroughs are only for games right. seriously i have to find out how to use this site and  i might not have any followers right now but omg it'd be really funny if i found out that i've been talking to my self all this time X'D im not making any sense am i :3 

well anyway please welcome me nicely okay people :D next time i post i will talk a bit about myself because i mean everyone needs an introduction right?