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Hey everyone! hows everyone doing today?Well im not that happy at the moment and let me tell you why.

so basically my frined asked me to go with her to the gym so i was likeo kay wait let me ask my mum.my mum goes go ask ur day i asked him he said yes after i tried to convince him and so i told the girl okay i'll come.Next day i got ready and everything my lil bro goes swimming at 1:30 and so i was like to my mum can you take me at 1 pm and she was like okay.However i started teasing my lil bro in the morning so she got really pissed off at me dont worry but she's always acting like that sometimes i wonder if shes bipolar or something :/ anywayz so shes still pissed off at me and its gone past 1pm and when we do eventually do go out and are driving in the car,guess what she does? well she goes straight to ma lil bros swimming place and its not even 1:30.okay so your pissed off at me doesnt mean you can make me late and when i tried calling the girl i was supposed to be meeting with i couldnt reach her so one hour later and im still trying to contact her and im getting really pissed off that i started crying..so im on the phone trying to call someone to help me out i mean i just wanted someone to listen to my horrible situation im in and then i remember that the closest friend i have doesnt even fucking answer my texts so how on earth is she going to even answer my call and all the other friends well if i called them they'll be like wtf mate get a life which i dont need reminding because i know that i need to get a life okay? So anyway i go on my kik and i start to talk to this really nice guy that lives in america we're pretty close and i told him what happend  and i was just relieved that i found someone there to listen to me even if they couldnt do anything :( what im trying to say is i really hate my life,my family and just me.i mean what the fuck does she want me to do improsined in his house my whole life? She thinks im so disrespectful,pffft there are people out there that do things that would make her cry so to he quite honest i dont think im that bad i've always tried changing and becoming better but she doesnt even give a shit and i just really cant wait to get out of this house and live my own life.ALONE .You all must be thinking this girls being such a Dramaqueen but im not okay because you dont know how lonely i feel and now the girl that i was supposed to be meeting with well when we did go to the place were we were supposed to be meeting well i couldnt find her and so i went back home.shes obviously pissed off at me right now and ive told her sorry a million times but she wont forgive me till like i tell her the entire story which she will find very stupid just like you guys do too.i just really felt so down that moment when my mum was acting like that and you know how something makes you feel so down and u start to have these thoughts like i want to commit and why was i born well if you dont then thats okay but i do and its just so annoying becuse everytime i have them  im tere being so serious thena moment later i forget all about them and it just makes me feel like i cant even make up my decision.Oh god im so sorry i must be talking nonesense but come on people i've already told you that im different and i have a very boring life thats why i spend my time on here writing about my life.Im sorry everyone i'll leave you guys alone and a reminder you all should be thankful that you have such nice parents that trust you and know that you'll be able to step into that world without needing a helping hand from them :) goodbye and i love you all :* ❤️❤️This song is pretty old and not that famous but you guys need to listen to it okay its pretty cool ;) 

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Enjoy your day everyone and im so sorry again for wasting your time talking about some bullcrap that doesnt even make sense.goodbye.