Hey everyone how you been doin'? so today is friday and it was the last day of the school week and we were doing P.E and fridays are always my favourite days because school ends,we can go home and i dont have to see people i hate and i can stay home and watch my beautiful korean dramas :') anyway going back to the point well as i was in a good mood because obvs last day so i go to P.E and we're doin shit and well i have a group that i hang out with but i wouldnt really call them 'real' friends and they use me alot and i know that and this is other girl that i've known for more then 5 years even told me that they're just taking advantage of me and i told her that i know so she asked me why i keep on hanging out with them and even i cant answer that question :/ thats how messed up my life is that i hang out with people that aren't even real and that use me and i know but i dont even care to get up and move away from them because they're ruining my life.:D yes i know im so stupid to let someone actually do that to me :') Back to the story (sorry i keep on going off track) so we were outside and there was a tiny spider on this girls am so everyones there laughing and so im like lets nice and take it off,so i do.Nxt thing i look over at 'my crew' and one of them that i cherish the most is giving me evils and laughing and talking in this other girls ear,ofcourse about me :( It pissed me off that it was her but if it was somone else i wouldnt really give a fuck because she is like the only person that actually gives a damn about me from time to time :) so yeah that broke my heart </3 but you wanna know why the fuck im telling you about my tiny problem? well yesterday i was scrolling down my newsfeed on Fb which is full of quotes and this one came up:
At first i didnt understand what it was trying to say but then when i did i was like oh,so if no one backbites about you then that means they're not jealous or anything? haha i know its not really what it mean but it was something like that right? so yeah,i kinda was like to myself aww no ones ever backbitten me before does that mean they dont give a shit about me? but who would?pfft ;) But next day comes,which is friday (today) and that scene happens ^^^^ and im not sure if i should be more upset over the fact that i just saw someone so dear to me backbite on me or happy and relieved over the fact that they backbited about me and that the quote above just made me feel as if someone out there actually feels jealous of me :P but maybe just total hatred against me hehe..
I bet if you guys could actually talk to me you would be shouting at me for being so stupid and letting people that i call my 'friends' tample all over me :'( aww damn im going now bye bye poeple.This lonely girl loves you all :* :* <3 <3
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